Not On My Own

So I am going to share something that, to be really honest, I am scared to. I don't want to sound desperate for attention and the reason I don't/ haven't talked about it is because I felt like that's the reason I told myself that I had it.  But no matter what other people say, I know the Lord is here for me as well as my family and that is all that matters.

I have depression. It's not really bad, but I have recently had thoughts of suicide. It scared me a lot. I didn't think It really mattered because I didn't think I had depression. Like I said, I didn't want to be sorry for myself. 

Nothing in my life has gone really bad. I haven't lost a friend or been raped or anything like that. Like i have mentioned in my other posts, I know it's the devil telling me lies. He has been telling me that when life seems to be too overwhelming, that I have to handle it all by myself. 

That's the problem. I can't and God knows that. I need to lay my burdens and my sad news and stress at His feet. That is way He came to earth. He wants it all. 

I don't know what you are going through right now. But you are not alone. Even if you feel like there is no one on earth there for you, you must remember there is a God you loves you and wants to take all that off your shoulders. If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts. Don't do it! I can't say that enough. Ending your life is NOT THE ANSWER. Your life is not your to take. 

I know that I am repeating a lot of what I have said in others posts, but I don't want any of you to forget. Also I would like to say that I am not making this blog into one about depression. I don't think that is what God has called me to do, though it will come up more often. If you would like a blog that talks about dealing with depression in a Godly way, I recommend my friends blog: http://depressedbutblessed.blogspot.com  This blog is truly amazing!

Blessings to you and know that God is our strength!
Melody :)