Life has been full of blessings lately for which I am very glad. I was able to visit family in NE for Christmas (including my adorable 2 month old nephew Peter!) and I had a slow and relaxing break from school. Also, this week is Winterim at my school and I have been doing yoga and zumba all week. It's been great!
Tonight was a change though. To be honest, my mom and I were not very nice to each other this evening as we were running late for Epiphany church and those words between us set off a trigger in my brain and I began to feel down. It seems like this is when my "depression" ( I say that because I don't want to really call it that because I don't think it really is) kicks in. I felt stuck in that negative phase the rest of the night. Through church and most of Youth Group after that I didn't really feel like I was of the sound, mind. I am so sick of that abrupt emotional change. I don't expect it and it comes at the worst times. I was trying to prepare for church, to worship my God and I felt like I wasn't really mentally there at all. For that I feel really bad.
I realize that a lot of times when I get these downs, it's Satan attacking me. He didn't want me to prepare and be excited to worship my God tonight. Satan wants me, really all of us as far away from our Savior as possible and will do anything he can to accomplish that. We can't let him into our minds. What I didn't do tonight was order Satan away from me in the name of God. When Satan tries and attack you, you tell him off by saying that you are a child of God and that he has NO power over you. When you say Jesus' name, Satan has to go away. God is the only one who can defeat him.
So next time I will speak out against Satan because I am a child of God. I belong to Him and deserve my joy in Him!
Your Sister in Christ,
Melody :)
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